I’m always the yes girl even when my heart says no. I always feel so bad saying no to invitations and so I drag my tired crabby self to anything and everything. Lately I have notices that not everyone does this. We will have plans with another family and only the dad will show up with his kids. I will feel my heart sink and internally bemoan my missing girl friend. Usually she is not feeling well or had a long day and has a terriable headache. I think sometimes this is true. However, I also think sometimes she just is a mom like me and needs a break. She needs some time alone.
Today Violet is teething to the tune of 3 teeth coming in. It is a painful thing for my little girl who has only had two teeth forever. They are all popping it at once and she is not sleeping or playing she is just whining and chewing on furniture and being generally a poopy head.
This morning my husband accepted an invitation for the family to go down the street for a playdate and dinner before he gets on a plane early due to the weather to get to New York and be there for 4 days. 4 days in which at least one of the days school will be cancelled and Charlotte will be covered with ice and I will have no break and no help.
So tonight I put my NO hat on and even though I still have the teether with me I am staying home. He just left and I wish we could spend the evening as a family but I want the kids to have fun. They just left. I’m totally okay with being almost alone. I would give a lot to be totally alone for an hour or two. But I will take what I can get.
And I will start to ask for a little totally alone time. I will put my NO hat on sometimes, because clearly other people have used this accessory before and I need to.
Maybe I am just a closet hermit, but sometimes a playdate, even with grownups is not what I need.
Phew – that is my 5 minutes of frantic typing and typos and no editing. This is my first time participating in Fadra’s Stream of Consciousness Sunday. You just type for 5 minutes and post. And clearly I needed it. I saw her tweet about it right after my hubs left and I put Violet in her exersaucer and typed for 5 minutes. She won’t last much longer. That’s it. This is what my brain needed to spit out. I feel better. I still can’t wait for bedtime, but I feel better. You should totally do this. It’s quite therapeutic.
So tell me, do you ever put on your NO hat?